It’s coming up to that time of year again where I’ll be flying back to The States in preparation for the Victoria’s Secret casting so I’ve been feeling very nostalgic. Looking back, doctor malady it’s so crazy to think that in January 2014, cheap more about I was rushing around New York, visiting apartments in between castings looking for a place to rent for a year. It was so stressful and I didn’t have a lot of money but I was determined to move to New York and really give America a try. I knew that in order to progress my career and be successful I would have to leave behind what I knew and where I was comfortable and dive right in.

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I’m a proper London girl, no other city compares in my eyes and New York had always been a hard place for me to take in. But as much as I loved my city, in 2013 I realised that I had gotten too comfortable. I remember speaking to Jourdan and although she might not remember this conversation, it was one that stuck with me and really helped me in my decision to move. She told me that if I could move to New York that I should really take the opportunity as it was the place to be, especially for models of colour. Deep down I always knew that but I was scared to really commit to New York, despite having my work visa; I didn’t want to leave my life in London. I already hated the fact that I always had to spend my birthdays alone doing Fashion Week in New York every year and had missed an epic summer with my friends to be there so the idea of missing so much time from my friends and family filled me with anxiety. What if I moved and I didn’t get work? What if I don’t make any friends? My stomach was literally turning every time I thought about the ‘what ifs’ that come with relocating at the age of 20 but I remember thinking to myself one day “Do I want to be great? Do I want to be successful?” and I knew the answer meant that I had to move.

I had literally no savings after I paid my taxes (lol was and still am learning the ropes) but I used the last of my money for a deposit for my two bedroom apartment in Harlem; I knew the only way I could feel comfortable and happy was to have my own space and not have to share or rely on anyone for anything. I had done the whole model apartment thing during Fashion Week before and it was tough. Living with all these personalities and sharing your personal space is not something that I could do for a long period of time and I knew to do well in New York, I had to stay. It was freezing cold and I only had a bed in the whole apartment which was quiet hilarious but eventually I started getting regular work with great clients and was seeing how great the opportunities were if I just worked really hard and stayed committed and it worked!

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We all have our safety zones in life, be it a city, the people in it, your home or bedroom- we all  have spaces we feel the most comfortable in. It’s easy to ignore an opportunity because it takes you too far out of your comfort zone and you sit and convince yourself how much harder things would be if you took that step out your box. I urge you to ask yourself “Do you want to be great? Do you want to be successful?” like I did because the only way you can really achieve your dreams and aspirations is by getting a little bit uncomfortable. It may be the harder choice to make but these are usually the most rewarding- no one became successful taking the easy route.

Shot by Adrian @_visionaryshit

It’s coming up to that time of year again where I’ll be flying back to The States in preparation for the Victoria’s Secret casting so I’ve been feeling very nostalgic. Looking back, doctor malady it’s so crazy to think that in January 2014, cheap more about I was rushing around New York, visiting apartments in between castings looking for a place to rent for a year. It was so stressful and I didn’t have a lot of money but I was determined to move to New York and really give America a try. I knew that in order to progress my career and be successful I would have to leave behind what I knew and where I was comfortable and dive right in.

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I’m a proper London girl, no other city compares in my eyes and New York had always been a hard place for me to take in. But as much as I loved my city, in 2013 I realised that I had gotten too comfortable. I remember speaking to Jourdan and although she might not remember this conversation, it was one that stuck with me and really helped me in my decision to move. She told me that if I could move to New York that I should really take the opportunity as it was the place to be, especially for models of colour. Deep down I always knew that but I was scared to really commit to New York, despite having my work visa; I didn’t want to leave my life in London. I already hated the fact that I always had to spend my birthdays alone doing Fashion Week in New York every year and had missed an epic summer with my friends to be there so the idea of missing so much time from my friends and family filled me with anxiety. What if I moved and I didn’t get work? What if I don’t make any friends? My stomach was literally turning every time I thought about the ‘what ifs’ that come with relocating at the age of 20 but I remember thinking to myself one day “Do I want to be great? Do I want to be successful?” and I knew the answer meant that I had to move.

I had literally no savings after I paid my taxes (lol was and still am learning the ropes) but I used the last of my money for a deposit for my two bedroom apartment in Harlem; I knew the only way I could feel comfortable and happy was to have my own space and not have to share or rely on anyone for anything. I had done the whole model apartment thing during Fashion Week before and it was tough. Living with all these personalities and sharing your personal space is not something that I could do for a long period of time and I knew to do well in New York, I had to stay. It was freezing cold and I only had a bed in the whole apartment which was quiet hilarious but eventually I started getting regular work with great clients and was seeing how great the opportunities were if I just worked really hard and stayed committed and it worked!

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We all have our safety zones in life, be it a city, the people in it, your home or bedroom- we all  have spaces we feel the most comfortable in. It’s easy to ignore an opportunity because it takes you too far out of your comfort zone and you sit and convince yourself how much harder things would be if you took that step out your box. I urge you to ask yourself “Do you want to be great? Do you want to be successful?” like I did because the only way you can really achieve your dreams and aspirations is by getting a little bit uncomfortable. It may be the harder choice to make but these are usually the most rewarding- no one became successful taking the easy route.

Shot by Adrian @_visionaryshit

It’s coming up to that time of year again where I’ll be flying back to The States in preparation for the Victoria’s Secret casting so I’ve been feeling very nostalgic. Looking back, clinic it’s so crazy to think that in January 2014, purchase I was rushing around New York, visiting apartments in between castings looking for a place to rent for a year. It was so stressful and I didn’t have a lot of money but I was determined to move to New York and really give America a try. I knew that in order to progress my career and be successful I would have to leave behind what I knew and where I was comfortable and dive right in.

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I’m a proper London girl, no other city compares in my eyes and New York had always been a hard place for me to take in. But as much as I loved my city, in 2013 I realised that I had gotten too comfortable. I remember speaking to Jourdan Dunn and although she might not remember this conversation, it was one that stuck with me and really helped me in my decision to move. She told me that if I could move to New York that I should really take the opportunity as it was the place to be, especially for models of colour. Deep down I always knew that but I was scared to really commit to New York, despite having my work visa; I didn’t want to leave my life in London. I already hated the fact that I always had to spend my birthdays alone doing Fashion Week in New York every year and had missed an epic summer with my friends to be there so the idea of missing so much time from my friends and family filled me with anxiety. What if I moved and I didn’t get work? What if I don’t make any friends? My stomach was literally turning every time I thought about the ‘what ifs’ that come with relocating at the age of 20 but I remember thinking to myself one day “Do I want to be great? Do I want to be successful?” and I knew the answer meant that I had to move.

I had literally no savings after I paid my taxes (lol was and still am learning the ropes) but I used the last of my money for a deposit for my two bedroom apartment in Harlem; I knew the only way I could feel comfortable and happy was to have my own space and not have to share or rely on anyone for anything. I had done the whole model apartment thing during Fashion Week before and it was tough. Living with all these personalities and sharing your personal space is not something that I could do for a long period of time and I knew to do well in New York, I had to stay. It was freezing cold and I only had a bed in the whole apartment which was quiet hilarious but eventually I started getting regular work with great clients and was seeing how great the opportunities were if I just worked really hard and stayed committed and it worked!

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We all have our safety zones in life, be it a city, the people in it, your home or bedroom- we all  have spaces we feel the most comfortable in. It’s easy to ignore an opportunity because it takes you too far out of your comfort zone and you sit and convince yourself how much harder things would be if you took that step out your box. I urge you to ask yourself “Do you want to be great? Do you want to be successful?” like I did because the only way you can really achieve your dreams and aspirations is by getting a little bit uncomfortable. It may be the harder choice to make but these are usually the most rewarding- no one became successful taking the easy route.

Shot by Adrian @_visionaryshit

It’s coming up to that time of year again where I’ll be flying back to The States in preparation for the Victoria’s Secret casting so I’ve been feeling very nostalgic. Looking back, doctor malady it’s so crazy to think that in January 2014, cheap more about I was rushing around New York, visiting apartments in between castings looking for a place to rent for a year. It was so stressful and I didn’t have a lot of money but I was determined to move to New York and really give America a try. I knew that in order to progress my career and be successful I would have to leave behind what I knew and where I was comfortable and dive right in.

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I’m a proper London girl, no other city compares in my eyes and New York had always been a hard place for me to take in. But as much as I loved my city, in 2013 I realised that I had gotten too comfortable. I remember speaking to Jourdan and although she might not remember this conversation, it was one that stuck with me and really helped me in my decision to move. She told me that if I could move to New York that I should really take the opportunity as it was the place to be, especially for models of colour. Deep down I always knew that but I was scared to really commit to New York, despite having my work visa; I didn’t want to leave my life in London. I already hated the fact that I always had to spend my birthdays alone doing Fashion Week in New York every year and had missed an epic summer with my friends to be there so the idea of missing so much time from my friends and family filled me with anxiety. What if I moved and I didn’t get work? What if I don’t make any friends? My stomach was literally turning every time I thought about the ‘what ifs’ that come with relocating at the age of 20 but I remember thinking to myself one day “Do I want to be great? Do I want to be successful?” and I knew the answer meant that I had to move.

I had literally no savings after I paid my taxes (lol was and still am learning the ropes) but I used the last of my money for a deposit for my two bedroom apartment in Harlem; I knew the only way I could feel comfortable and happy was to have my own space and not have to share or rely on anyone for anything. I had done the whole model apartment thing during Fashion Week before and it was tough. Living with all these personalities and sharing your personal space is not something that I could do for a long period of time and I knew to do well in New York, I had to stay. It was freezing cold and I only had a bed in the whole apartment which was quiet hilarious but eventually I started getting regular work with great clients and was seeing how great the opportunities were if I just worked really hard and stayed committed and it worked!

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We all have our safety zones in life, be it a city, the people in it, your home or bedroom- we all  have spaces we feel the most comfortable in. It’s easy to ignore an opportunity because it takes you too far out of your comfort zone and you sit and convince yourself how much harder things would be if you took that step out your box. I urge you to ask yourself “Do you want to be great? Do you want to be successful?” like I did because the only way you can really achieve your dreams and aspirations is by getting a little bit uncomfortable. It may be the harder choice to make but these are usually the most rewarding- no one became successful taking the easy route.

Shot by Adrian @_visionaryshit

It’s coming up to that time of year again where I’ll be flying back to The States in preparation for the Victoria’s Secret casting so I’ve been feeling very nostalgic. Looking back, clinic it’s so crazy to think that in January 2014, purchase I was rushing around New York, visiting apartments in between castings looking for a place to rent for a year. It was so stressful and I didn’t have a lot of money but I was determined to move to New York and really give America a try. I knew that in order to progress my career and be successful I would have to leave behind what I knew and where I was comfortable and dive right in.

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I’m a proper London girl, no other city compares in my eyes and New York had always been a hard place for me to take in. But as much as I loved my city, in 2013 I realised that I had gotten too comfortable. I remember speaking to Jourdan Dunn and although she might not remember this conversation, it was one that stuck with me and really helped me in my decision to move. She told me that if I could move to New York that I should really take the opportunity as it was the place to be, especially for models of colour. Deep down I always knew that but I was scared to really commit to New York, despite having my work visa; I didn’t want to leave my life in London. I already hated the fact that I always had to spend my birthdays alone doing Fashion Week in New York every year and had missed an epic summer with my friends to be there so the idea of missing so much time from my friends and family filled me with anxiety. What if I moved and I didn’t get work? What if I don’t make any friends? My stomach was literally turning every time I thought about the ‘what ifs’ that come with relocating at the age of 20 but I remember thinking to myself one day “Do I want to be great? Do I want to be successful?” and I knew the answer meant that I had to move.

I had literally no savings after I paid my taxes (lol was and still am learning the ropes) but I used the last of my money for a deposit for my two bedroom apartment in Harlem; I knew the only way I could feel comfortable and happy was to have my own space and not have to share or rely on anyone for anything. I had done the whole model apartment thing during Fashion Week before and it was tough. Living with all these personalities and sharing your personal space is not something that I could do for a long period of time and I knew to do well in New York, I had to stay. It was freezing cold and I only had a bed in the whole apartment which was quiet hilarious but eventually I started getting regular work with great clients and was seeing how great the opportunities were if I just worked really hard and stayed committed and it worked!

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We all have our safety zones in life, be it a city, the people in it, your home or bedroom- we all  have spaces we feel the most comfortable in. It’s easy to ignore an opportunity because it takes you too far out of your comfort zone and you sit and convince yourself how much harder things would be if you took that step out your box. I urge you to ask yourself “Do you want to be great? Do you want to be successful?” like I did because the only way you can really achieve your dreams and aspirations is by getting a little bit uncomfortable. It may be the harder choice to make but these are usually the most rewarding- no one became successful taking the easy route.

Shot by Adrian @_visionaryshit

*If you’re anti fur I’m sorry and you should stop reading this now xx*

I bought my beloved vintage, cheap white fur jacket on 9th Avenue near Chelsea Market. It wasn’t from some chic boutique or vintage store- it was from the side of the road where a big fat guy in a red fur jacket was selling fur coats out of the back of the car. The most exciting pieces in anyone wardrobe should be more than just expensive or designer; they should have a story. My bag is an iconic vintage Dior Saddle Bag; one of the most popular bag of the 90’s seen on every relevant celebrity and a favourite of Sex and the City’s Carrie Bradshaw. Finding a unique piece with a story is the easiest way to add personality and vibrancy to any look; even if it means scouring rails on the side of the road and rummaging through the boot of someones car.

Outfit details in gallery above*

Shot by The Urban Spotter, Daniel Bruno Grandl

Mesh vest, ASOS
Vintage Dior Saddle Bag: verstairecollective.com, Kicks: Raf Simons Ozeweego 2
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Backpack, Gucci

It’s coming up to that time of year again where I’ll be flying back to The States in preparation for the Victoria’s Secret casting so I’ve been feeling very nostalgic. Looking back, doctor malady it’s so crazy to think that in January 2014, cheap more about I was rushing around New York, visiting apartments in between castings looking for a place to rent for a year. It was so stressful and I didn’t have a lot of money but I was determined to move to New York and really give America a try. I knew that in order to progress my career and be successful I would have to leave behind what I knew and where I was comfortable and dive right in.

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I’m a proper London girl, no other city compares in my eyes and New York had always been a hard place for me to take in. But as much as I loved my city, in 2013 I realised that I had gotten too comfortable. I remember speaking to Jourdan and although she might not remember this conversation, it was one that stuck with me and really helped me in my decision to move. She told me that if I could move to New York that I should really take the opportunity as it was the place to be, especially for models of colour. Deep down I always knew that but I was scared to really commit to New York, despite having my work visa; I didn’t want to leave my life in London. I already hated the fact that I always had to spend my birthdays alone doing Fashion Week in New York every year and had missed an epic summer with my friends to be there so the idea of missing so much time from my friends and family filled me with anxiety. What if I moved and I didn’t get work? What if I don’t make any friends? My stomach was literally turning every time I thought about the ‘what ifs’ that come with relocating at the age of 20 but I remember thinking to myself one day “Do I want to be great? Do I want to be successful?” and I knew the answer meant that I had to move.

I had literally no savings after I paid my taxes (lol was and still am learning the ropes) but I used the last of my money for a deposit for my two bedroom apartment in Harlem; I knew the only way I could feel comfortable and happy was to have my own space and not have to share or rely on anyone for anything. I had done the whole model apartment thing during Fashion Week before and it was tough. Living with all these personalities and sharing your personal space is not something that I could do for a long period of time and I knew to do well in New York, I had to stay. It was freezing cold and I only had a bed in the whole apartment which was quiet hilarious but eventually I started getting regular work with great clients and was seeing how great the opportunities were if I just worked really hard and stayed committed and it worked!

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We all have our safety zones in life, be it a city, the people in it, your home or bedroom- we all  have spaces we feel the most comfortable in. It’s easy to ignore an opportunity because it takes you too far out of your comfort zone and you sit and convince yourself how much harder things would be if you took that step out your box. I urge you to ask yourself “Do you want to be great? Do you want to be successful?” like I did because the only way you can really achieve your dreams and aspirations is by getting a little bit uncomfortable. It may be the harder choice to make but these are usually the most rewarding- no one became successful taking the easy route.

Shot by Adrian @_visionaryshit

It’s coming up to that time of year again where I’ll be flying back to The States in preparation for the Victoria’s Secret casting so I’ve been feeling very nostalgic. Looking back, clinic it’s so crazy to think that in January 2014, purchase I was rushing around New York, visiting apartments in between castings looking for a place to rent for a year. It was so stressful and I didn’t have a lot of money but I was determined to move to New York and really give America a try. I knew that in order to progress my career and be successful I would have to leave behind what I knew and where I was comfortable and dive right in.

image-24-10-16-09-24-2

I’m a proper London girl, no other city compares in my eyes and New York had always been a hard place for me to take in. But as much as I loved my city, in 2013 I realised that I had gotten too comfortable. I remember speaking to Jourdan Dunn and although she might not remember this conversation, it was one that stuck with me and really helped me in my decision to move. She told me that if I could move to New York that I should really take the opportunity as it was the place to be, especially for models of colour. Deep down I always knew that but I was scared to really commit to New York, despite having my work visa; I didn’t want to leave my life in London. I already hated the fact that I always had to spend my birthdays alone doing Fashion Week in New York every year and had missed an epic summer with my friends to be there so the idea of missing so much time from my friends and family filled me with anxiety. What if I moved and I didn’t get work? What if I don’t make any friends? My stomach was literally turning every time I thought about the ‘what ifs’ that come with relocating at the age of 20 but I remember thinking to myself one day “Do I want to be great? Do I want to be successful?” and I knew the answer meant that I had to move.

I had literally no savings after I paid my taxes (lol was and still am learning the ropes) but I used the last of my money for a deposit for my two bedroom apartment in Harlem; I knew the only way I could feel comfortable and happy was to have my own space and not have to share or rely on anyone for anything. I had done the whole model apartment thing during Fashion Week before and it was tough. Living with all these personalities and sharing your personal space is not something that I could do for a long period of time and I knew to do well in New York, I had to stay. It was freezing cold and I only had a bed in the whole apartment which was quiet hilarious but eventually I started getting regular work with great clients and was seeing how great the opportunities were if I just worked really hard and stayed committed and it worked!

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We all have our safety zones in life, be it a city, the people in it, your home or bedroom- we all  have spaces we feel the most comfortable in. It’s easy to ignore an opportunity because it takes you too far out of your comfort zone and you sit and convince yourself how much harder things would be if you took that step out your box. I urge you to ask yourself “Do you want to be great? Do you want to be successful?” like I did because the only way you can really achieve your dreams and aspirations is by getting a little bit uncomfortable. It may be the harder choice to make but these are usually the most rewarding- no one became successful taking the easy route.

Shot by Adrian @_visionaryshit

*If you’re anti fur I’m sorry and you should stop reading this now xx*

I bought my beloved vintage, cheap white fur jacket on 9th Avenue near Chelsea Market. It wasn’t from some chic boutique or vintage store- it was from the side of the road where a big fat guy in a red fur jacket was selling fur coats out of the back of the car. The most exciting pieces in anyone wardrobe should be more than just expensive or designer; they should have a story. My bag is an iconic vintage Dior Saddle Bag; one of the most popular bag of the 90’s seen on every relevant celebrity and a favourite of Sex and the City’s Carrie Bradshaw. Finding a unique piece with a story is the easiest way to add personality and vibrancy to any look; even if it means scouring rails on the side of the road and rummaging through the boot of someones car.

Outfit details in gallery above*

Shot by The Urban Spotter, Daniel Bruno Grandl

Mesh vest, ASOS
Vintage Dior Saddle Bag: verstairecollective.com, Kicks: Raf Simons Ozeweego 2
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urban5
urban7
urban22
urban33
Backpack, Gucci

I remember the first time I got Victoria’s Secret like it was yesterday. The days leading up to the casting I would practice my walk everyday and watched every single show that I could find on youtube (they have literally had the best performers every single year). Walking into the casting was really surreal, order seeing the likes of Joan Smalls looking radiant as well as other new hopefuls all hoping to be picked for the biggest show on Earth; I was so nervous but knew that it was a do or die situation. I would either eat my nerves and go in and show them my personality or I would let doubt consume me.

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When my booker called me a few days later to tell me I had gotten the show I cried my eyes out and naturally tried to call my mum, doctor who of course, there didn’t answer her phone for another six hours- I couldn’t believe I had gotten it! What was funny to me was the fact that after I got it, when I was interviewed about it, I was always asked questions along the lines of “Did you feel pressure to work out to compete with other girls” “Have you heard any stories of bitchiness backstage” and I would always internally roll my eyes- why is it that when a group of women get together, people assume that we try to drag each other down? Why is it that women are always pitted against each other? 

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Whether it is a Rihanna vs. Beyonce tweet or a badly pieced together tabloid cover, it’s like people want women to be secretly against one another but one of the reasons I loved doing the show last year and am so excited about going to paris this year is because it proved all of these assumptions wrong. Backstage there was this buzz of excitement oozing from everybody who stepped in; be it Adriana Lima who had walked the show 16 times or a newbie like myself, everybody was so happy to be there. All the girls were mingling and talking over breakfast and as much as people would love me to say it was like Mean Girls with a “you can’t sit with us” situation, it was literally the most chill time ever. When it came to show time, all the big girls were so supportive of us newbies and made us feel so comfortable and confident; it really was like a sisterhood backstage.

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Before the last show, Ed Razek gave us a beautiful speech, moving the likes of Adriana to tears. He explained to us how special we all were to be there today and how proud of us he was; I remember feeling so energised and happy afterwards, I couldn’t wait to walk again.

As much as people would revel in the idea that there was cat fights and hair pulling backstage there just wasn’t; the Victoria’s Secret show really is a celebration of powerful, confident women on screen and off and I cannot wait to be a part of this year in Paris!

Scroll through the gallery above to see more exclusive backstage pictures from last years Victoria’s Secret Show!